Well I am writing my first Blog post. I am a little nervous about doing it after I have taken my ambien but I feel that this was the only way I could be totally honest. Life as the spouse of a deployed military member is really hard. It sucks having to do everything on your own. Oh and god forbid that it is not your first deployment you are supposed to just suck it up and get over it and move on. (Well that is how I am made to feel sometimes) It's hard. When the kids don't behave, you don't know where exactly your husband is at or what he is doing, you are trying to keep it all together so no one will think that you are overwhelmed. I love my children to death, I would die or them. I don't care if they are rotten to the core they are my kids and I love them. Now my kids aren't bad but when my husband left my oldest son started acting out in school a little bit. Nothing major just some bad choices well he feels that even if he does try to move past it in his class he is being constantly reminded that he messed up. Was told today that someone he looked up to know longer respected him because he made a mistake. A little harsh for an 11 year old people pleaser. All he wants is to make adults happy and proud of him. It means nothing coming from me. We have said this many times before the man left and every time we think it has been resolved it rears its ugly head again.
I know my kids are good, I know I am a good parent. But we feel like we can not win with this teacher right now or the class in general. Just my first blog for the night..... look for more about things to do to survive a deployment
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Hang in there, Mary. No matter how brave a face we all put on, every single military wife who is a mom knows exactly how you are feeling right at this moment. It is hard to be the strong one all the time. Hopefully you can find a good solution for your son. I ended up pulling my son out of San O when he was in third grade due to his teacher. I've homeschooled him ever since, and I've never regretted it. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteWhile I don't have a husband that was in the military, I did have a husband who worked away from home in a dangerous profession. I knew where he was and that he would call every day or so and could come home for visits, but that didn't mean that there wasn't some of the problems that you are going through. I remember the sometimes the soul freezing loneliness. The need to feel his arms around me and reassure me that I was doing a good job, making the right choices, and that no matter how far away he was he still loved me. Then there were the readjustments that had to be make when he came home...
ReplyDeleteKeeping busy is good, but take some time every day for yourself. Watch a feel good movie, read a feel good book, look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are a strong and capeable woman and you can do all things that are nessacery for that day. Don't borrow trouble by worring about tomorrow. Sure keep the bigger picture in mind but worring about it is counter productive and will only add to your woe basket, making your burdens heavier then you need to carry around right now.
Remember that I am praying for you and love you always.